Bridesmaid Shopping

Bridesmaid dress shopping is a strange thing. It is weird because... there are two ways you can go: You can, take all the power and just pick a dress and say, "you have to pay for this with your own money and cannot have any say." Or you could let your bridesmaids give their opinion on each and every dress. While I decided I really wanted to go with the second option, I realized that all my bridesmaids are so different that they would never agree on a dress so I ended up having to do the first option. This does not make me happy. So now that my sister is also getting married and now I am on the opposite end of the situation, I realized that I would like her to just have whatever she wants for her day. I would wear a garbage bag if she wanted me to (hopefully at least with some killer heels). Buttt. I realize that she is not like that and would love it if I would pick out a dress that I am most comfortable in but in her color choice. So really... there is no winning the bridesmaid dress shopping conundrum. But, everyone ends up with a spiffy dress in this episode so, all is good. happiness ensues.

Listening to: "I've Just Seen A Face" -Jim Sturgess version.

Exercise

I do not understand why I cannot ever be excited about working out. I always feel so good when I am working out and after I am done but I can never convince myself of that at the beginning. I only like to exercise when I am in a way tricked into it, such as going on a run with someone and chatting the whole time or playing a sport or taking a class. I only like it when it is disguised as something more fun, something less boring. But, I am trying so hard to convince myself to do it more often. My little sister is so good at convincing herself to work out and tries so hard to convince me and it never works unless we plan to do something fun afterwards. But, working out makes you happy because of all the endorphins, therefore it is something I need to embrace in order to meet my goal of being happy and healthy and alive.

Listening to "We're So Starving" by Panic At the Disco.
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Matt Nathanson

The more and more I listen to Matt Nathanson, the more and more I love his music.

Vague Thoughts on Some Things

Hi, I have a lot of thoughts on some things and I thought I would make other people listen. :) I have recently begun reading a lot of books about happiness. How to attain it, how to keep it, how to make others happy. Different aspects of happiness and how you can cultivate it and make it grow for both myself and others around me. Happiness in the form of the physical, such as yoga or exercise. Happiness in the form of the spiritual such as Buddhism and the many different teachers of chakras. Happiness in the form of taking small instances and letting them warm your heart. I also recently decided to give up being in a bad mood, it was a vice and I feel as if it just made life too hard. This is not to say I cannot be sad or indifferent, i just cannot hold on to a certain situation, either being something someone said to me or a situation that made me unhappy. I will no longer hold a grudge and I will just make myself heard when I feel there is an injustice instead of letting it boil up. Overall, my new state of mine is happiness and overwhelming personal power to stay that way and try to influence others to take up happiness as their most common state of mind.

A song and songwriter that makes me happy is Matt Nathanson.
Currently Listening to: "Come On Get Higher" by Matt Nathanson.